tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7506738854024388642024-03-13T11:08:25.602-07:00Nonsense&ExistenceBellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.comBlogger41125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-82970097540621544992012-10-03T07:15:00.002-07:002012-10-03T07:15:55.258-07:00The SwedePeople can be really disgusting.<div>
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Sometimes my own disappointment feels like it's rearing up to choke me.</div>
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Skin crawling, suffocating in mediocrity.</div>
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Like on my birthday I bumped into a man from Sweden.</div>
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This taught me that there are good looking sweet, uber intelligent men out there with great swedish accents, impressive beards that are willing to overcome their own shyness to go out on a limb and talk to a stranger covered in glitter.</div>
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Sometimes potential is just that, potential.<br />
Something that may happen but almost certainly won't.<br />
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Sometimes you have to accept failure.<br />
Sometimes that failure was not on your part.<br />
Sometimes some things are just weak.<br />
Some things obvious and nauseating<br />
Sometimes I wish I felt less.<br />
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Just finished the last big campaign i'll ever do for free (hopefully, hah)<br />
It went really well actually, ended up with stuff i want to put into my portfolio.<br />
Go me.<br />
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I got to write a bunch of odes and seeming as my poetry is a little rusty it was a really rewarding exercise to get back into it.... and i didn't completely hate them either.<br />
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Life is so strange... how one thing can fall apart only for everything else to fall together.<br />
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Maybe being a hardworking overachieving bitch that holds herself to the highest standard possible has finally paid off.<br />
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Either way it's really great feeling like i'm enough.<br />
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Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-6759491984723609452012-09-03T20:16:00.001-07:002012-09-03T20:16:19.639-07:00Polar.My feelings are polar.<br />
Extreme and varied.<br />
Letting myself feel all of them.<br />
At least I have a new band to be obsessed with.<br />
Everything is beautifully horrible and horribly beautiful.<br />
I am filled and overflowing with gratitude.<br />
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<br />Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-46065140540812923342012-09-02T21:01:00.000-07:002012-09-02T21:01:11.089-07:00Bring.Sometimes I wake up positively grossed out and disgusted.<br />
My skin sometimes crawls with disappointment.<br />
Then I remember the people that matter and I find the energy and determination to let go.<br />
Moving up and onwards.<br />
Bring me November.<br />
Bring me January.<br />
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Today I will laugh at the world.<br />
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<br />Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-25252911512984323372012-09-02T08:34:00.001-07:002012-09-02T20:50:29.042-07:00Whelmed.Finding it incredibly difficult to be proactive today.<br />
Can't i just have a day to do absolutely nothing.<br />
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From inspirationfrustrationapathyangerjoyvictorydefeatenthusiasmblahblah<br />
So much going on, just the way i like it.<br />
This is the stuff I thrive on.<br />
Intense pressure, heightened emotions, make or break moments.<br />
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Rather dead and buried than alive and average.<br />
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<br />Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-57428737886068837362012-08-24T10:46:00.000-07:002012-08-24T10:46:48.852-07:00Change.It's scary reading old letters and realising nothing changed.<br />
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Easy shit is boring, it's the getting through the hard shit that makes life fulfilling.<br />
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<br />Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-71941523078121749642012-08-19T12:43:00.002-07:002012-08-19T12:43:32.935-07:00To NobodyHere is an excerpt from a book I found recently on one of my second hand book buying escapades.<br />
It is now one of my most prized possessions, along with my first edition miniature Frankenstein.<br />
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It is called The Portable Curmudgeon and was compiled and edited by Jon Winokur.<br />
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"A curmudgeon's reputation for malevolence is undeserved. They're neither warped nor evil at heart. They don't hate mankind, just mankind's excesses. They're just as sensitive and softhearted as the next guy, but they hide their vulnerability beneath a crust of misanthropy. They ease the pain by turning hurt into humor. They snarl at pretense and bite at hypocrisy out of a healthy sense of outrage. They attack maudlinism because it devalues genuine sentiment. They hurl polemical thunderbolts at middle class values and pop culture in order to preserve their sanity.<br />
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<br />Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-7921071406211084062012-08-14T22:02:00.003-07:002012-08-24T10:49:21.140-07:00Word.I think I've been unknowingly lying to myself for a while.<br />
I'm awake for what feels like the first time in forever.<br />
I feel like I can do and be anything.<br />
People can paint me in whatever light they like,<br />
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I'm enjoying getting reacquainted with it in a new context.<br />
I'm just being a sponge, taking in everything I can in.<br />
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which breathes and moves,since Doom<br />
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And i have to admit that it's turned out to be one of my favourites, simple and effective.<br />
I was so unbelievably apathetic about it from the get-go but I did a 180 and then the idea's just flew.<br />
I'm really proud of it. And big ups to the most skilled multi-media kid I know Nikki, damn she is one talented girly and helped us film our TV advert. Love her to bits actually.<br />
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Nikki and I are also doing a year long collaboration together and bringing out our own line of idiosyncratic plush toys (Whim dolls) I'm very excited and really enjoying doing it, can't wait to make our little creatures.<br />
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I really am lucky to be surrounded by truly diverse and talented individuals. I actually think i collect them, if i think about it... everyone close to me is brilliantly creative in their own way.<br />
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<br />Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-76470968331307372752012-08-11T01:10:00.001-07:002012-08-24T10:50:20.478-07:00AwkwardSo suddenly in the space of like a week my blog hits have like tripled/quadrupled<br />
considering how many I had before, it isn't as impressive as it sounds.<br />
Most of these hits are probably from awkward links that my blog is somehow<br />
connected to in the ever evolving web of the internets.<br />
Perhaps i should stop posting so many photos of cute japanese girls. haha.<br />
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Awkward.<br />
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Here is a frightening fact...<br />
I have two and a half more months of college left, ever.<br />
Exciting, and we just got briefed in for brand challenge and I am happy to announce I have a really awesome team, everyone seems to be hardworking, down-to-eath, non-smokers.<br />
(non-smokers means no constant 20 minutes and over smoke breaks every 2 hours)<br />
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So I've been proven wrong and it feels pretty great.<br />
Our client is Nedbank, which is interesting seeming as i've been moaning about how they need help with their branding for AGES. Time to put my money where my mouth is huh? (badbankjokes)<br />
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So, stressful and exciting things lay ahead.<br />
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Remind myself daily of how awesome I am and just keep swimming.<br />
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<br />Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-87820705113469241722012-08-09T05:03:00.003-07:002012-08-09T05:03:45.287-07:00It can only get better, right?<br />
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I have so much i want to get done, i just don't even know where to start.<br />
Or where to get the money to start. hah.<br />
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First theres my thigh piece, then my feet, my wrists, the back of my ankles, my other side, finishing up my spine.<br />
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Basically I just want to be covered in words, things of meaning.<br />
Covered, consumed, reminded, forever truths.<br />
I want my skin to tell a story.<br />
Even when i'm old and wrinkled and gross.<br />
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I'm not writing about anyone specific, only my general feelings and meanderings.<br />
About how i feel about society as a whole, my own failings and frustrations.<br />
Shit i like, shit i don't, I don't think i'm better than anyone else.<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">(i think i'm a shit load better than everyone else, haha joking)</span><br />
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Sorry i'm such an overly emotional cynical bitch, I'm working on it.<br />
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Here's a cool picture of a laser cat...<br />
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Love her too much.Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-1558782627101790852012-08-03T15:11:00.000-07:002012-08-24T10:50:55.252-07:00ExistingThe phrase dominating my existence at the moment is "because fuck you, that's why"<br />
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This isn't coming from a place of hate or rage, but more of reckless abandon.<br />
I am so done with other people's posturing and feigned attempts at being hip,<br />
mock arrogance and social climbing.<br />
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DOWN WITH CLICHE'D EXISTENCE<br />
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There are more things of importance in the universe than inadequacies and my<br />
intense need to fix people.<br />
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I'm through with being some retarded martyr of emotionalism or dumbing myself down<br />
and watering down my opinions.<br />
For what? Because society says we should play nicely with other children.<br />
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I'm too much for most people and I'm perfectly content with that.<br />
I'm always willing to grow and be proven wrong.<br />
Problem is, I'm seldom proved wrong.<br />
Please prove me wrong.<br />
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So I'm through with farce and bullshit and escapism<br />
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I'm just existing, in my own skin, in all of my self.<br />
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The parts I misplaced for a while<br />
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Running on 20% disappointment 10% pity 30% inspiration and 40% recklessness<br />
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Working out pretty great so far.<br />
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I'm just going to listen to Grimes all day everyday and pretend I'm japanese.<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">Pattern perpetuator.</span></div>Bellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12141753503806250045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-750673885402438864.post-42332359918211306932012-07-31T00:23:00.001-07:002012-08-24T10:51:16.685-07:00Make it.Part of me is getting really angry.<br />
Fuming, actually.<br />
Then another part is so relieved to not feel so anguished.<br />
There is nothing more agonizing than losing respect for someone.<br />
And another part is grossed out.<br />
And then another part is so excited.<br />
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Basically I have too many feelings and my brain is like FUCK THIS NOISE.<br />
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So i'm just going with apathy because this whole curse of authenticity thing is too much for me right now.<br />
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I have too much to do.<br />
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On a lighter note I have my November internship confirmed and I am so excited to go back and blow minds because my self-doubt can go and fuck itself. Thats another feeling all my doubts, doubts about the future and my career have disappeared. *poof* gone. I'm exactly where I want and need to be. Bring on more people like me, the intelligent, ambitious, silly and over sensitive.<br />
I know most of them won't be, but i caught glimpses of those that were.<br />
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Sometimes, I wish I was better at lying to myself for the short term.<br />
You know the whole: "fake it till you make it."<br />
I never have been.<br />
I never will be.<br />
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I'll make it, because I don't fake it.<br />
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