Monday, September 24, 2012


Sometimes hope is a cancer best removed.
Sometimes potential is just that, potential.
Something that may happen but almost certainly won't.
Sometimes some things are best left as far in the past as possible.
Sometimes you just have to cut your losses.
Sometimes you have to accept failure.
Sometimes that failure was not on your part.
Sometimes some things are just weak.
Some things obvious and nauseating
Sometimes I wish I felt less.
Some things are impossible


I'd rather not drown in shallow waters.

Saturday, September 15, 2012


Life has been all kinds of crazy.
Just finished the last big campaign i'll ever do for free (hopefully, hah)
It went really well actually, ended up with stuff i want to put into my portfolio.
Go me.

I got to write a bunch of odes and seeming as my poetry is a little rusty it was a really rewarding exercise to get back into it.... and i didn't completely hate them either.

Now it's all about my WHIM dolls as nikki and i are showcasing them next weekend at the Loerie student portfolio day... that's whats up.

Life is so strange... how one thing can fall apart only for everything else to fall together.

Maybe being a hardworking overachieving bitch that holds herself to the highest standard possible has finally paid off.

Either way it's really great feeling like i'm enough.

So fuck the rest of the feelings I'm just going with what's good.

Because I deserve it.

Monday, September 3, 2012


From magnetized to estranged.
everything to nothing

eb and flow.



My feelings are polar.
Extreme and varied.
Letting myself feel all of them.
At least I have a new band to be obsessed with.
Everything is beautifully horrible and horribly beautiful.
I am filled and overflowing with gratitude.
I am so lucky to be who I am and where I am.

Only greatness lies before me. 

Sunday, September 2, 2012


Sometimes I wake up positively grossed out and disgusted.
My skin sometimes crawls with disappointment.
Then I remember the people that matter and I find the energy and determination to let go.
Moving up and onwards.
Bring me November.
Bring me January.

Bring me.


Today I will be the master of my emotions.
Today I will laugh at the world.
Today I will.


Finding it incredibly difficult to be proactive today.
Can't i just have a day to do absolutely nothing.
Nope, not enough time.
I have so much to do.

Positively overwhelmed.
(2 months)